I figured it was time I started posting again. Y'know, it's time... So now, some updates:
I found a bunch of Wiccans in town. They're pretty cool... for Wiccans... No, but really, I have a soul family now and it's wonderful! I feel accepted and loved, and that's something of a new-ish feeling. So: Huzzah! I have been taking classes (Wicca 101) for a few months, because really a lot of what they study is similar, at least, to what I need to study. But actually, last night after class my teacher (M) and I had a discussion, and we decided that while the classes were good for me initially, now they're not helping. I actually feel bound when I'm sitting in the class, maybe partially because our book is by Silver Ravenwolf and she's awfully preachy sometimes, but also because there's just too much ceremony, just to many steps that are just so, in Wicca. So I move on.
When she said I could gracefully bow out of classes, I felt the lead slip off my shoulders. The room was suddenly brighter, my friends' faces clearer, the lights not so glaring and critical. Thank you, M.
In light of recent developments, combined with a long-held wish to find my own, I am seeking out a Grove. For those of you who have- oh, screw it, most of y'all don't know too much about Druids. Well, a Grove is like a coven of Druids. *When I stop capitalizing those words, just envision them with the power of the capital, and don't begrudge me my laziness.* Anyway, finding the local grove *see there I go* is easier said than done. Wiccans are somewhat scarce, but druids are a little bit like needles in haystacks. Really big friggin' haystacks. But we're really shiny needles. Anyway, I started at the Ancient Order of Druids in America (AODA) site. I like the message they send, and I am planning to study with them. Eventually. So I looked up their various groves around the country, and lo and behold! Nothing really near me. Drat. So I went to the Ár nDraíocht Féin (ADF) site. They don't really have any groves close to me, either. However, the closest one is... a day trip away, I suppose. And I'm going to join them for Mabon! I'm so excited!
I mentioned this to my Wiccan friends (who I'll call "my coven") and they were very supportive and excited for me. This does mean that I will not be spending Mabon with my coven, but my closest sisters agree with me that I need to find a grove and other druids, and I need to see how they do stuff, rituals and the like.
But M said to me, "This does not mean you are not part of our family anymore. You still have a place here."
That means more than she knows.
So that's a quick update. Other stuff is going ok: I have an off-campus apartment and I'm learning to live [actually] on my own, because a dorm isn't really on your own; I have a job at the campus bookstore, and of course it's not what I want to do for the rest of my life it's a pretty good job, with good hours, convenient location, nice management, and awesome coworkers. I'm going to be posting (/trying to post) more regularly again, because stuff is happening!
As the last, I want to share with you my new personal motto: "When they laugh at you, laugh with them." And that, mi amici, is all for now.